My Vacation With My BFFS

I had a fantastic time, and the weather was great at the cabin.
We kept ourselves very busy, and had a spectacular time.
My  bff's were crazy...and thats exactly what we all needed! We were 'Women On A Mission"...lol  Just havent figured out what that mission was, but we had fun trying to complete it...hahahhahahaa!!!  
We had so much fun, we decided to stay an extra day. We also made new friends...at least I think they were friends..hahahaha! They may have just been nice to us out of fear....bahahahahaa!
I can't wait to go again next year!!!  Cabin #10 is my goal!!!!

PS...I will post a pic or 2 as soon as LJ lets me do it....grrrrrrr!!!!

Anticipation Is Making Me Wait...:)

I am so excited about going away for a vacation next week!!!!
This anticipation is killing me...lol  I know its gonna be a good time for sure. I can't wait to be able to go and be ME for change!!
And the best part is I'm gonna be spending time with my BFF!!!!!  



Look out gf....cuz I'm ready to have some fun!!!!!!!!!
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Confused and Disgusted

I have spent the past few weeks feeling very down, very alone, and very stressed. I guess i care too much about others, and they just seem to use me because of it.
I have one VERY dear friend who I know returns the caring. And I appreciate that alot!!!!!
I have been trying for a very long time to just worry about me, but I wasnt raised that way. I come from a big family, 5 brothers and 3 sisters, and I am the youngest. It seems they forgot what our parents instilled in them, and I seem to be the only one who tries to practice what I have been taught.

But thats not the root of what I am dealing with right now.

I live in a house with 3 other adults, and my grandson, but yet, I feel so alone. I don't get any moral support from anyone. Yet I try very hard to give them support when they need it.
Whatever happened to lending a hand, or an ear, when needed????

I don't ask for much at all. Only thing I really feel I need is moral support, and a hug now and then. But that seems to be too much trouble for the people around here.

I do everything EXPECTED of me, but yet, I feel very unappreciated.

I guess this is one of my venting posts, but I guess thats what this livejournal thing is all about.

Why are people so self centered and uncaring anymore?????

i have given all I have, and have gotten nothing in return...and it confuses me!!!!!!

Till Later,
Deb

Hello Again!!!

Its been a crazy few days. Just trying to keep myelf busy so I don't go crazy....:)
Deb told me I need to get into my journal, so here I am....hahahahaha!!

I can't wait til I go down there to the cabin, and we get to spend some gurly time together. She better not get sick!!!!  That happens sometimes when we make plans..lol.

Hope you all have a great week.

Till Later,
Deb

Is this HELL???


The past few days have been horrible.
Everything just seems like it doesn't wanna go my way, or happen for me, no matter how hard I try!!!
My mood has been horrible, and when they reminded us on TV last night that there are only 52 days left of summer, it made it all even worse!!!!
Im 49 yrs old, and I feel like a teenager, and not in a good way.
It seems if I dont do the things that are EXPECTED of me, I am punished for it, and thats not an exaggeration, its the truth!!!
It doesnt do me any good to try to express how I feel, because I am made to feel guilty for feeling this way...GO FIGURE!

I just wish I could be happy...I wish I knew what being happy feels like....:(


Dont Know

I honestly don't know what today is gonna bring.
I am in a really strange, and scary mood. I just don't know whats wrong with me.
I would really like to just jump in my car and drive and not have any place to really go. Just see where I end up.
But unfortunately, I cant do that. It seems my life gets more complicated everyday. I am so tired of feeling the way I do.

I am so happy that I am gonna see my BFF Deb at the end of the month. When we get together, it seems like all my problems go away. She is such an awesome person!!!!!!

Till next time,
Deb