August 4th, 2011

Is this HELL???

The past few days have been horrible.
Everything just seems like it doesn't wanna go my way, or happen for me, no matter how hard I try!!!
My mood has been horrible, and when they reminded us on TV last night that there are only 52 days left of summer, it made it all even worse!!!!
Im 49 yrs old, and I feel like a teenager, and not in a good way.
It seems if I dont do the things that are EXPECTED of me, I am punished for it, and thats not an exaggeration, its the truth!!!
It doesnt do me any good to try to express how I feel, because I am made to feel guilty for feeling this way...GO FIGURE!

I just wish I could be happy...I wish I knew what being happy feels like....:(